When I first think of the word seesaw, I instantly imagine two children alternately riding up and down while seated on opposite ends of a plank that is balanced in the middle but Webster’s dictionary has some other definitions for seesaw:
1. an up and down, back and forth movement or procedure.
2. to keep changing one’s decision, opinion, or attitude; vacillate
Our family has experienced moments this Summer that have been exciting, joy-filled, and left us with wonderful lasting memories. I call these our see-saw Ups. We have also had some situations and circumstances that have been extremely difficult and challenging. Ones that have left us discouraged, fearful and questioning God’s plan for our lives. I call these our see-saw Downs.
Here are just a few…
Up: Our nephew, David, decided to come live with us during his college break. He’s been such a joy. Somehow he has this amazing way of keeping Brody and Carson from getting on each others’ last nerve.
Down: Two days before school let out, I hurt myself playing tennis and tore a bunch of ligaments in my foot. I spent the first four weeks of our Summer break on complete bed rest, crutches and visits to my physical therapist.
Up: Our oldest son, Brody, went on a mission trip with Testify (a city wide youth choir). While on tour, he had some incredible life changing experiences and spiritually grew closer in his relationship with God.
Down: My husband, Keith, didn’t get the big construction project he had worked so hard on. The potential client picked someone else which meant no income for us…. again.
Up: Our son, Carson, went on his very first away camp to Look Up Lodge. Although he was very hesitant about being away from us, he returned home with a huge smile on his face and says he wants to go back next year.
Down: We have a couple from California interested in buying our home. Now I know that your thinking “this is an Up not a Down” but not really. This was our dream home and secretly I prayed that we would be able to stay here for many, many years. Our family has so many wonderful memories living on the lake. The thought of leaving instantly brings me to tears.
Up: My sister is flying in today for a week long visit. I’m really excited and looking forward the time we’ll have together.
Down: We had to cancel our family trip to Washington D.C. because I wouldn’t be able to walk around on my injured foot. This decision left me with serious mommy guilt that I’ve had to work through.
Up: We rented a mountain cabin with friends and went to the Biltmore Estate instead. We had a fantastic time, relaxed with friends, and saved a LOT of money too.
Yep, I can honestly say it has been a see-saw summer for our family. We have certainly had our Ups and Downs experiences. We have gone back and forth on many big decisions that will drastically effect our future. We have been guilty of changing our opinion about certain people and certain things. We’ve had good and bad attitudes and vacillated multiple times on what direction we should go.
Yet something wonderful has come out of this See-Saw Summer. Through all the Ups and Downs, I can honestly say that we did see the hand of God move in our lives this Summer. We have watched as He has orchestrated our circumstances for good. In the center of this crazy ride, we saw doors open and situations unfold which confirmed His love for us. God’s daily provision has guided us through some very rough waters.
Although we changed our opinions about people, went back and forth with our attitudes and emotions, and vacillated a lot; God never changed His opinion about us and never vacillated about he plan for our future.
Yes, it certainly has been a See-Saw Summer.
One that has brought our family closer together.
One that has strengthened our marriage.
One that has drawn us to a place of dependence.
One that has lead us to the feet of Jesus where we have found rest, renewal, and strength.
One that our family will never forget.
Lord, who am I am what is my family that you would have brought us this far?
2 Samuel 7:18